What is the true self? On a daily basis we can drift through life on autopilot, not noticing the true self, rather living externally while the true self resides in the background, observing. When I went through my last huge shift quite a time ago now, I had to heal the part of myself that had been suffering for a long period. Some of the suffering was at my own hands, part of the suffering was at the hands of others, some because of unavoidable external circumstances and part of it due to my upbringing. As a child I felt that the external self I showed the world was not really me. I felt as though I was playing a part. Nothing felt truly penetrable. It was as though the world around me was an illusion, and I had to fulfil my role in the whole shebang. I’d like to share a strategy I utilised to heal during my meditation many years ago. I would visualise myself floating above my past self, watching what I did in particular circumstances. I would give my past self guidance. Sometimes I would relive a mistake I had made and in my mind urge myself to see what I was doing from a different perspective. I gave my past self advice and encouragement as I floated above and it began to shift things within my external present self and so my true self, within the real meditation, and my external self met together consciously in that world I created.

To really heal the whole self, the external self and true self need to meet, on a regular basis and often life prevents this from happening. Autopilot is the true self, denied access to giving support to the external self which has to function in reality. But what if we allowed the true self to be in the driving seat most of the time? What a thought! So let’s go back to what the true self is. Well let’s face it. It is ALL the self. You cannot really separate the two, but they can be disassociated from each other and so our consciousness resides mostly in the external self, the self that does all the walking, talking and doing. With that clear, knowing it is all us, we need to go back to what the true self is. It is us, unfettered by the constraints of reality and duality. The true self is the whole aspect of all we are that resides in the vibration of pure creation. The external self performs the action, but the true self does the manifesting. The true self holds no judgement of what is occurring. It is in a state of peace, joy and is consciously accessible through deep meditation. It resonates with forgiveness and sees the potential of expansion and inclusion. It does not ruminate, obsess or calculate.

Now most of the time we are operating in the reverse of how we were created, to create. We were created through a pure process of Source expressing outwards a pure desire to become, that which it was not, to experience all perspectives without judgment. From energy to matter. We can, along side pure creation because we still do that, create in a backwards manner, where the external self (matter) overrides the true self (Source) and begins to create from sheer will power alone within the Maya, using the reflection of the Maya. Will power is definitely a tool of creating, but it can be misused. If we use will power alone through action and determination without the spirit of creation that moves through the true self, then we can often run into snags, problems and issues that are born of that ‘will-power-creating’. The true self then simply works from the space where the external self has taken over. Basically it then adjusts the energy to meet the needs expressed by the external self in the Now.
Creating backwards is what causes suffering in our lives and it’s not just will-power creating that mucks it all up. There is a whole gamut of things that is part of the mechanism of ‘creating backwards’. So you may ask why am I now focusing on the external self? Well, we have to recognise the manifesting on behalf of the external self to truly see the difference between the true self and the external self forms of creation. Then we have to address the myriad of ways we can get two to ‘meet’ in what Rama my guide calls: The Space In Between’.

First of all, if we create from the external self we usually use the external world to do so, which means creating from the tools it offers. The tools the external world uses for the creation process is matter based will, ambition, self serving power, manipulation, calculative manoeuvres, sometimes brute force and so on. This is all, part of creation, as ALL is an aspect of Source, or God, or the Great Spirit, the Divine Matrix, whatever you want to call it, so we are not creating outside of it we are just blocking the flow of the true self creation by creating with the other aspect we reside in, that is the body. I guess it’s like the external self creation is taking the stairs when the true self creation is like using an elevator.
If we use the Maya tools to create with, its like looking in a mirror to fix your messy hair and trying to brush it down by touching the mirrored image not your actual hair.

This is why the two aspects of the self need to connect. The true self will say, ‘See in the mirror how your hair is messy?’ And the external self hears this hint and says, ‘Yes.’
Then true self then sends an impulse to the hand to touch the hair on the head not the mirror. It’s such a natural instinct to want to reach out and fix what is in the mirror, but if we do, it most likely results in frustration and disappointment as we scrape at the reflection with our hand causing no effective change.

We have to reverse the process and create from the inside out.